katt
Well-Known Member
okay, you asked for it, my story is kinda long. . .
i don't remember ever not beingchunky and sad. in the middle of second grade my world was turned upside down by switching schools (something i didn't handle very well).
all during elementry and part of middle school i became friends with a group of girls that weren't very good support systems themselves. they all emotionally eat, talked nasty things about skinnier girls, and hated themselves. as a result i picked up many nasty traits from them including hating myself and eating to sooth any emotion from happy to sad to angry. they were not a good group of girls, they were constantly talking about each other behind their back, and fighting over every little thing.
in the 7th grade i was the largest girl in my class, i was terribly depressed all the time and fearfull of saying or doing anything that would upset my "friends" and release their streams of teases and curses. i was constantly eating to fill the empty place the pain left.
one day, i decided i had had enough i cut myself off completely from the group of girls that had helped ruin my entire life. for weeks i had to put up with their tormenting me, they would walk behind me in the halls and all of them would fake gag and choke as if i was causing them to do so. they spread terrible rumors around about me and left all manners of nasty, uncalled for notes in my locker or on my desk.
so i went friendless, i continued to eat my pain away. i stopped eating to fill a hunger, and insteadate every meal (including snacks) to fill me to the point of being ill. food as my only friend.
depressed and fat i started high school with a new found light. in the 8th grade i had joined 4-h and had made a few new friends at school. i was still chunky, and still depressed, but i had good, honest friends by my side, and something to focus on outside of school besides when i was going to eat again. i go involved with rabbits and for a while traveling to the shows and such really helped me, but my next problem came with all the fast food i was eating.i was on the road almost every other weekend (during the spring and fall it might have been every weekend as well) and instead of being smart and bringing healthy food to eat, we simply ate fast food. some weekends we would have 4 out of 6 meals fast food. so you can imagine that wasn't helping at all.
once i graduated i worked really hard at losing weight, and managed over the summer to drop around 30 pounds, but i could never seem to drop more then that. and when my friends left for school, and i stayed behind at a dead end job, i soon returned to my old ways of eating everything.
now, due to partly because i was on medication that increased my appetite (i was eating ALL the time) and being depressed i have found myself at my max weight and size.
so there is it all, the entire story of katie's weight gain.. .
i don't remember ever not beingchunky and sad. in the middle of second grade my world was turned upside down by switching schools (something i didn't handle very well).
all during elementry and part of middle school i became friends with a group of girls that weren't very good support systems themselves. they all emotionally eat, talked nasty things about skinnier girls, and hated themselves. as a result i picked up many nasty traits from them including hating myself and eating to sooth any emotion from happy to sad to angry. they were not a good group of girls, they were constantly talking about each other behind their back, and fighting over every little thing.
in the 7th grade i was the largest girl in my class, i was terribly depressed all the time and fearfull of saying or doing anything that would upset my "friends" and release their streams of teases and curses. i was constantly eating to fill the empty place the pain left.
one day, i decided i had had enough i cut myself off completely from the group of girls that had helped ruin my entire life. for weeks i had to put up with their tormenting me, they would walk behind me in the halls and all of them would fake gag and choke as if i was causing them to do so. they spread terrible rumors around about me and left all manners of nasty, uncalled for notes in my locker or on my desk.
so i went friendless, i continued to eat my pain away. i stopped eating to fill a hunger, and insteadate every meal (including snacks) to fill me to the point of being ill. food as my only friend.
depressed and fat i started high school with a new found light. in the 8th grade i had joined 4-h and had made a few new friends at school. i was still chunky, and still depressed, but i had good, honest friends by my side, and something to focus on outside of school besides when i was going to eat again. i go involved with rabbits and for a while traveling to the shows and such really helped me, but my next problem came with all the fast food i was eating.i was on the road almost every other weekend (during the spring and fall it might have been every weekend as well) and instead of being smart and bringing healthy food to eat, we simply ate fast food. some weekends we would have 4 out of 6 meals fast food. so you can imagine that wasn't helping at all.
once i graduated i worked really hard at losing weight, and managed over the summer to drop around 30 pounds, but i could never seem to drop more then that. and when my friends left for school, and i stayed behind at a dead end job, i soon returned to my old ways of eating everything.
now, due to partly because i was on medication that increased my appetite (i was eating ALL the time) and being depressed i have found myself at my max weight and size.
so there is it all, the entire story of katie's weight gain.. .
