Lissa, if you don't feel ready to face having your baby spayed, and there is no pressing need for it, that's okay. I feel it's a very personal choice as to whether one has it done or not. I just adopted a female rabbit (Anna) and had her spayed before taking her home...I so feared that something would happen to her, as I lost my little ND, Scooby, during a routine neuter last December (and was subsequently berated in a privateforum for his death by one of the members, saying that I should never have had a rabbit neutered...she was in essence accusing me of causing Scooby's death). Yet in order to have a rabbit who could possibly bond with my male rabbit, Raph, she needed to be spayed...so I kept an open mind and let go of the fear as much as possible. She was done eight days ago and is happily running about the house now.
There are statistics about ovarian/uterine cancers, just as there are statistics about the risks of surgery. Whatever you decide to do, you will make that decision with love for your little Pristine. Our lives, our animals' lives, they are never guaranteed as to length of time or how we choose to leave. Just embrace whatever decision feels best for you and Pristine and go with that. That's where you will find your peace.
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