Oh my sweet baby girl...I'll miss you so much...I think I'm going to have to come here and talk to you often...
I've been crying this entire couple hours, too...and had the hardest time telling Emily. We were originally going to try to get her cremated and brought home to us to put in a little memorial urn, or something...but Em just couldn't handle the thought of it...and asked that we not do that. I respect her thoughts and feelings...so I asked Peg to just go ahead and bury her next to GingerSpice...and I'm okay with it because she'll be laying with a friend...
We're also going to be bringing home the little salt dough bunny Katie made of her and have it mounted on some sort of little memorial...she deserves a special spot in our home.
I'm so thankful, which might sound really weird at a time like this...but I'm so thankful that she was in such amazing care, with people that loved her so much, and she wasn't alone or uncared for. She was in the arms and care of loved ones...and though she was ultimately my baby...they are family, too...and I'm so thankful she was with them.
I'm so thankful she passed peacefully and wasn't alone...those two things help so much...and knowing she's with friends...that helps, too.
Of course, I'm grieving...I couldn't even talk when Peg called to say she'd passed. Peg had called just a few minutes before to say that she didn't think little Drew would make it, and the second time she called, I had to ask Danny to talk...I just knew my baby was gone.
Wow, this hurts so much...it's been so long since I lost one of my babies...oh man, guys, I just don't know what to do with myself.
I think it'll be days before I can post about anything else or fulfill my modly duties...I feel so incredibly lost. All I could do was go over, on the way to putting Em to bed, and cuddle and cry with Flower...she got more kisses than I'm sure she wanted...but it helped so much. I'm going to just continue to do that...snuggle with my furry fanclub. I know that'll help.
Keep me and Peg in your prayers...we're grieving together...and it's so painful...
And Peg, you're right...there's not a single thing that would help with a necropsy...I just think her little body was never fully strong and healthy. I think she knew she would never make it home to us...and truthfully, I knew as well...it was one of my first thoughts...that my worse thought had come true...
Love to you all...and especially my little girl...you will never ever be forgotten...
