BethM
Well-Known Member
Just a note- I had this all written out, but then heard a rabbit thump, went to check on them, and came back to find my Firefox had closed.
Ok. Start again. I don't talk much about this irl, because people usually just laugh and tell me to get over it.
I am afraid to be alone in my house. It's not specific to this house, it was bad before we moved, then got better for awhile, now it's really bad again.
It worst at night, and then it doesn't matter if I'm alone, or if my husband is here, I get terrified at just about every little noise. From the time the lights go off, everything frightens me. From whatever the rabbits are doing to normal pops and creaks to cars driving by to the heater turning on. Every noise sends me into a panic. Stomach drops, heart races, all of that. I've recently started having chest pains, upper left side, and am wondering if this is related in any way.
**Earlier, there was a noise that sounded like the window opening, but I think it was someone getting into their litter box. (Then the thumping.......omg.)**
I don't really sleep much, because of it. I know that is having bad effects on my body, but...I can't help it. When I do manage to sleep, I wake up every time the motion light in the back turns on. (I think it's mostly neighborhood cats, and sometimes plants moving in the wind, but as soon as that light goes on, I am awake. It doesn't even shine directly into this room, but I still wake up with it.) I get visual disturbances, so it seems like things are moving, but they aren't.
I don't even know how anyone manages to live alone - I am constantly terrified! Even during the day, I will check all the closets, make sure the doors are locked, and I'm still scared. I know I shouldn't be, but I am.
Plus. I am too anxious about things to take anything for it. I am terrified that I will take xanax or some other anti-anxiety thing, or even just a sleep aid, and I won't notice when something DOES happen. And the less I sleep, the worse things get, so the less I sleep......
For awhile, I considered having someone in to check if there were unshielded wires causing high electrical fields, I know that can sometimes cause problems, but it really isn't specific to this house. It's been better or worse for years now.
I don't really know what to do, at this point.
eta, I also get tinnitus (ringing in the ears) pretty bad at night, and it's worse when I'm really anxious.
Ok. Start again. I don't talk much about this irl, because people usually just laugh and tell me to get over it.
I am afraid to be alone in my house. It's not specific to this house, it was bad before we moved, then got better for awhile, now it's really bad again.
It worst at night, and then it doesn't matter if I'm alone, or if my husband is here, I get terrified at just about every little noise. From the time the lights go off, everything frightens me. From whatever the rabbits are doing to normal pops and creaks to cars driving by to the heater turning on. Every noise sends me into a panic. Stomach drops, heart races, all of that. I've recently started having chest pains, upper left side, and am wondering if this is related in any way.
**Earlier, there was a noise that sounded like the window opening, but I think it was someone getting into their litter box. (Then the thumping.......omg.)**
I don't really sleep much, because of it. I know that is having bad effects on my body, but...I can't help it. When I do manage to sleep, I wake up every time the motion light in the back turns on. (I think it's mostly neighborhood cats, and sometimes plants moving in the wind, but as soon as that light goes on, I am awake. It doesn't even shine directly into this room, but I still wake up with it.) I get visual disturbances, so it seems like things are moving, but they aren't.
I don't even know how anyone manages to live alone - I am constantly terrified! Even during the day, I will check all the closets, make sure the doors are locked, and I'm still scared. I know I shouldn't be, but I am.
Plus. I am too anxious about things to take anything for it. I am terrified that I will take xanax or some other anti-anxiety thing, or even just a sleep aid, and I won't notice when something DOES happen. And the less I sleep, the worse things get, so the less I sleep......
For awhile, I considered having someone in to check if there were unshielded wires causing high electrical fields, I know that can sometimes cause problems, but it really isn't specific to this house. It's been better or worse for years now.
I don't really know what to do, at this point.
eta, I also get tinnitus (ringing in the ears) pretty bad at night, and it's worse when I'm really anxious.