Long time no see.
Well,where should I start.
Erm, I left here after a series of hurtful comments someone said on my thread in Rainbow Bridge about Sunshine beingeuthanized, although since then I have poppedin occasionally. On that thread I blamed myself, as you do in grief, but the rational partof me knew that I was being hard on myself and also that I did not explain things fully, just put what was in my head at the time.
I then flew off totally and was nasty to a fair amount ofmods and admin, which was not fair. The person who took the brunt of that was Haley, to which I apologise. I wanted to be deleted from the site and banned with a full IP ban. Realistically I knew I couldn't have my IP banned, and that deleting me would be an arse, but I really hoped for the account ban and when they wouldn't do that it sent me over the edge which was when I got nasty, so I am sorry for that, especially to you Haley.
Ordinarily I would just have cut that person out of my life, not the whole site, but I've been really ill, which contributed to the whole mess. I don't know really what to say about it but I ended up being assessed by mental health professionals who wanted to admit me back to hospital (but last time I was there it made everything infinitely worseso I told them that was not an option, plus where would my buns go? My parents couldn't look after them and my buns don't deserve to go into a rescue or anything, that's not fair) but when I said no they said they wouldsee me at home, but the people who do that told me that they could not help me and did not know what I wanted them to do (Which was quite simple, I wanted them to help me). I also know,had I been in hospital they would not have done anything either because of the services they provide. So I am stuck as I am now, with no hope of getting better, and no hope of changing. However, despite still not intending to have any contact or tolerate said person talking to me, I can appreciate it was not the fault of the whole site, although I do still wish I had been banned.
Ok, so that's an update on me, now my buns.
I had three dinkies neutered on the same day (glutton for punishment), and they all came through fine.
And the main point of this thread was that I am having problems in my room. I have an NIC set up and four bucks in there. If they access each other, they fight, so everything is barricaded off apart from the odd cm stripor so in some places. However, this morning I have woken up to see Badger with a scratch across his nose, so someone, somewhere is getting to him, or has gotten to him. So I wondered if anyone has any ideas on what I could do to block off those few cm strips where they can access each other. Everything else is barricaded using fibreboard, but because the connectors on the NIC cages are awkward, there are some areas that the fibreboard doesn't cover.
Just a few more things to add
1, Everyone should worship Polly because she is great and has been incredible to me recently.
2, I stole her idea and also made a website http://www.freewebs.com/mymotleybunnycrew/ (but it mostly says stuff those that know my buns know anyway)
3, In my ill haze I contacted my stalkerish person and that is all sorted now, no more fear of her, so that was one step in the right direction, even if it was an accident.
I'm not hanging around here really, for every ones sakes. Having anill, volatile person around is not good for anyone, so I'm sorry to ask a question and then run away, but I don't quite know what else to do.
Hope everyone is ok. I'm sorry for the losses that have been suffered around here recently.
Thanks for reading, don't worry, I expect nasty comments for the way I behaved, so go for it.
Well,where should I start.
Erm, I left here after a series of hurtful comments someone said on my thread in Rainbow Bridge about Sunshine beingeuthanized, although since then I have poppedin occasionally. On that thread I blamed myself, as you do in grief, but the rational partof me knew that I was being hard on myself and also that I did not explain things fully, just put what was in my head at the time.
I then flew off totally and was nasty to a fair amount ofmods and admin, which was not fair. The person who took the brunt of that was Haley, to which I apologise. I wanted to be deleted from the site and banned with a full IP ban. Realistically I knew I couldn't have my IP banned, and that deleting me would be an arse, but I really hoped for the account ban and when they wouldn't do that it sent me over the edge which was when I got nasty, so I am sorry for that, especially to you Haley.
Ordinarily I would just have cut that person out of my life, not the whole site, but I've been really ill, which contributed to the whole mess. I don't know really what to say about it but I ended up being assessed by mental health professionals who wanted to admit me back to hospital (but last time I was there it made everything infinitely worseso I told them that was not an option, plus where would my buns go? My parents couldn't look after them and my buns don't deserve to go into a rescue or anything, that's not fair) but when I said no they said they wouldsee me at home, but the people who do that told me that they could not help me and did not know what I wanted them to do (Which was quite simple, I wanted them to help me). I also know,had I been in hospital they would not have done anything either because of the services they provide. So I am stuck as I am now, with no hope of getting better, and no hope of changing. However, despite still not intending to have any contact or tolerate said person talking to me, I can appreciate it was not the fault of the whole site, although I do still wish I had been banned.
Ok, so that's an update on me, now my buns.
I had three dinkies neutered on the same day (glutton for punishment), and they all came through fine.
And the main point of this thread was that I am having problems in my room. I have an NIC set up and four bucks in there. If they access each other, they fight, so everything is barricaded off apart from the odd cm stripor so in some places. However, this morning I have woken up to see Badger with a scratch across his nose, so someone, somewhere is getting to him, or has gotten to him. So I wondered if anyone has any ideas on what I could do to block off those few cm strips where they can access each other. Everything else is barricaded using fibreboard, but because the connectors on the NIC cages are awkward, there are some areas that the fibreboard doesn't cover.
Just a few more things to add
1, Everyone should worship Polly because she is great and has been incredible to me recently.
2, I stole her idea and also made a website http://www.freewebs.com/mymotleybunnycrew/ (but it mostly says stuff those that know my buns know anyway)
3, In my ill haze I contacted my stalkerish person and that is all sorted now, no more fear of her, so that was one step in the right direction, even if it was an accident.
I'm not hanging around here really, for every ones sakes. Having anill, volatile person around is not good for anyone, so I'm sorry to ask a question and then run away, but I don't quite know what else to do.
Hope everyone is ok. I'm sorry for the losses that have been suffered around here recently.
Thanks for reading, don't worry, I expect nasty comments for the way I behaved, so go for it.
