My panic/anxiety is genetic...from BOTH sides of my family. YAY meeee :rollseyes!
I have panic attacks daily...over nothing, really. Of course, when I get them I often get small pressure pains in my head....which makes me panic even more because I think I am having a brain aneurysm (something I fear and think I am going to die from...paranoid, much?).
My panic related "fear stuff"...
I rarely can go shopping alone. I fear doctors, dentists, and getting hurt. I live in fear daily of ghosts. My new fear is that someone is going to break into my house. I for some reason have developed a fear of saying "Hello" when I see someone I know (they have to say it first or I won't say it). I kind of want to take a course at the local college, but I fear it in a million different ways. I fear money....etc!
I am also a person who wants to rush, which always ends up in me panicking because sometimes I can't rush the things I want to rush. Then I start to get paranoid.
Most of my panic comes from being paranoid. I am a very paranoid person.
For me...I avoid situations. Like, I don't have friends because when I think of meeting a new person who could potentially be my friend.....I panic because I don't know what to do. Haha...I don't know how to "hang out" with people. So, I usually avoid trying to make friends. I guess it could be because I also know they we probably won't get along because I am way into my animals...and lots of people around here my age are into partying, etc.
Lots of the time I just can't avoid certain things. So, I take these all natural anxiety pills that my Dad gave to me. I take 3 of them at a time and it "zones me out" and relaxes me enough to get me through what I have to do (depending on what it is I am doing).
My Dad told me not to go onto prescription drugs because it will just mess me up. He has been on them for 9 years and he says he wishes he never went on them. I always wondered why my Dad was a "zombie". He "goes off" of them occasionally because he thinks he is fine....and I can tell a big difference (he is more fun!!)...but then he has to go back on them because his anxiety gets bad again. So...I just don't want to have to rely on drugs like that.