maherwoman
Well-Known Member
Well, my birthday is Saturday...and we had aparty all planned out at the rink we frequent...and I just found outtonight that no one's able to show. We invited sevenpeople...and not one of them can come.
I really don't know what to say...I have had a run of bad birthdays(and I mean BAD) for literally 17 years now. At this point, Ifind myself wondering why I expect them to change from year toyear. I'm really disappointed and hurt, though I understandeveryone's reasons. One has an aunt with a birthday thatrecently lost her child, and he needs to be there for her (not tomention the other two deaths in the family they've had thisyear). Two have to work. One is moving.And two more are sick tonight, and more than likely still will be bythen because it's my best friend and his wife (who doesn't like me onebit, and is probably going to try her darndest to keep him fromgoing). The final friend invited never called me back...and Idon't want to be pushy, and at this point, she probably has plans.
*sigh* I'm crying, but I really shouldn't. I have awonderful husband that tried to plan this, and a wonderful daughterthat loves me to pieces, as well as five (almost seven) animals that doeverything they can to show their love for me.
Still yet...I'm really upset. I was so hoping this year wouldbe different. Got my nails done for it. Bought newnail polish for it. I guess I should be thankful I couldn'tfind an outfit I liked last night when we went shopping forit. That at least saves money. And at least myhusband won't have to now pay for seven people's admissions and skaterentals. That saved us quite a bit ($6.25 admission and $3.25skate rental each...totalling $66.50).
I dunno...I guess I just wanted to vent a little...though is it stilltechnically venting when you're crying? I thought venting waswhen you were mad...I'm not mad...just sad. I can't evenclaim to be hurt...those were all good reasons for not being able tomake it. I did have to keep from talking once the friendsthat were able to make it for D&D tonight learned that no onewas going to show. They each gave me hugs and sincereapologies...I just couldn't speak, or I would've broken down...and Ididn't want them to feel worse than they already did about not beingable to show.
*sigh* :tears2:
I really don't know what to say...I have had a run of bad birthdays(and I mean BAD) for literally 17 years now. At this point, Ifind myself wondering why I expect them to change from year toyear. I'm really disappointed and hurt, though I understandeveryone's reasons. One has an aunt with a birthday thatrecently lost her child, and he needs to be there for her (not tomention the other two deaths in the family they've had thisyear). Two have to work. One is moving.And two more are sick tonight, and more than likely still will be bythen because it's my best friend and his wife (who doesn't like me onebit, and is probably going to try her darndest to keep him fromgoing). The final friend invited never called me back...and Idon't want to be pushy, and at this point, she probably has plans.
*sigh* I'm crying, but I really shouldn't. I have awonderful husband that tried to plan this, and a wonderful daughterthat loves me to pieces, as well as five (almost seven) animals that doeverything they can to show their love for me.
Still yet...I'm really upset. I was so hoping this year wouldbe different. Got my nails done for it. Bought newnail polish for it. I guess I should be thankful I couldn'tfind an outfit I liked last night when we went shopping forit. That at least saves money. And at least myhusband won't have to now pay for seven people's admissions and skaterentals. That saved us quite a bit ($6.25 admission and $3.25skate rental each...totalling $66.50).
I dunno...I guess I just wanted to vent a little...though is it stilltechnically venting when you're crying? I thought venting waswhen you were mad...I'm not mad...just sad. I can't evenclaim to be hurt...those were all good reasons for not being able tomake it. I did have to keep from talking once the friendsthat were able to make it for D&D tonight learned that no onewas going to show. They each gave me hugs and sincereapologies...I just couldn't speak, or I would've broken down...and Ididn't want them to feel worse than they already did about not beingable to show.
*sigh* :tears2: