god, me too, with the fire of a thousand suns. they're the one thing in the entire world that I'm truly terrified of... and if you think cockroaches are bad, try TREE roaches - those f*ckers can get to be 3-4'' long, and if that isn't bad enough, they f-ing FLY!!!
I'm smart enough that I would NEVER do this, not even out of morbid curiosity... but according to Lisa (agnesthelion), if you google "texas tree roaches", it'll give you serious nightmares
although honestly, I loathe the horrendous, massive, flying f*cking tree roaches marginally less than new orleans sewer roaches, simply because I encounter perhaps half a dozen tree roaches a year in my house (counting both live and dead discoveries), as opposed to sewer roaches in new orleans being more like half a dozen a month. (that may or may not be an exaggeration... I haven't lived in new orleans since I was 11, which was 18 years ago, but I remember the horrendous surprise of finding one being FAR too common-place to the point that you ALWAYS had to put bowls and cups and such in the cabinets upside-down because of the significant risk of finding a dead b*astard roach in something if you put it right-side up. to this day, I am still afraid of the back of kitchen cabinets, I am still afraid of attics/crawl spaces and I am still unwilling to sit down on a toilet without having a thorough look at all of the inner sides of the bowl... all because of my nine years spent growing up in new orleans and the intense, innate roach-related paranoia it instilled in me.)