binkies
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ok. some of you may know this and some may not. but it is time to get things out in the open.
In January, my husband left me for the girl who was supposed to be my best friend. The one who came to live with me. I freaked out. Did something I shouldnt have, but wasnt in my right mind at all. Complete total shock doesnt even seem like strong enough words. I took a bottle of pills, (muscle relaxers). Cut my wrist, and set my hair on fire. Obviously not the most intelligent thing to do. I spent a week in ICU, did a lot of damage to my system. My body cant keep up the potassium I need, and my blood sugar drops out of nowhere. I pass out regularly with no warning. In fact I passed out in March, fell, hit my car and dislocated my shoulder. Looking back, I wish that I hadn't done it. It was stupid. Very very stupid. I'm on medication now, seeing a therapist. Mentally stable.
As a result, I had to move in with my parents to keep myself out of the mental hospital. All of my animals had to go. Dogs, cats, rabbits, pigs, rats. ALL of them. It is a veryawful feeling to have a houseful of beloved pets and have to hand them over to other people. With one stupid move of mine, I have ruined so much. My feedom, my sanity, my comfort. Gone.
Fast forward to now. I have been in my own place for a week now. It feels great. Although the landlady doesnt allow pets of any kind. No caged animals. You wouldnt believe how hard it is to find a place to rent that allows animals. Every single ad, has NO PETS on it. The places are dumps, and expensive because of this being a college town. I had to take what I can get. I jumped on the first decent, clean, roomy place I could afford.
I also have a new man in my life. He is super wonderful to me. He made me realize that I wasnt even happy in my marriage. I am truely happy NOW. He is great to the kids, they love him to death. My life is getting better by the day, I just have to stay strong.
But I feel the need to apologize to you guys, my friends, for what I have done. For letting Phillip and Tulla down, and not being here when I am needed.
In January, my husband left me for the girl who was supposed to be my best friend. The one who came to live with me. I freaked out. Did something I shouldnt have, but wasnt in my right mind at all. Complete total shock doesnt even seem like strong enough words. I took a bottle of pills, (muscle relaxers). Cut my wrist, and set my hair on fire. Obviously not the most intelligent thing to do. I spent a week in ICU, did a lot of damage to my system. My body cant keep up the potassium I need, and my blood sugar drops out of nowhere. I pass out regularly with no warning. In fact I passed out in March, fell, hit my car and dislocated my shoulder. Looking back, I wish that I hadn't done it. It was stupid. Very very stupid. I'm on medication now, seeing a therapist. Mentally stable.
As a result, I had to move in with my parents to keep myself out of the mental hospital. All of my animals had to go. Dogs, cats, rabbits, pigs, rats. ALL of them. It is a veryawful feeling to have a houseful of beloved pets and have to hand them over to other people. With one stupid move of mine, I have ruined so much. My feedom, my sanity, my comfort. Gone.
Fast forward to now. I have been in my own place for a week now. It feels great. Although the landlady doesnt allow pets of any kind. No caged animals. You wouldnt believe how hard it is to find a place to rent that allows animals. Every single ad, has NO PETS on it. The places are dumps, and expensive because of this being a college town. I had to take what I can get. I jumped on the first decent, clean, roomy place I could afford.
I also have a new man in my life. He is super wonderful to me. He made me realize that I wasnt even happy in my marriage. I am truely happy NOW. He is great to the kids, they love him to death. My life is getting better by the day, I just have to stay strong.
But I feel the need to apologize to you guys, my friends, for what I have done. For letting Phillip and Tulla down, and not being here when I am needed.
