I want to talk about today's expirence and how stressful it was for both me and my poor little baby. So as some of you know, my bunny matured recently and she's been quite different, she chews more, she digs more, she grunts and growls and marks a lot and I knew I wouldn't be getting her a mate and if I did, I don't want litters because it's only me who takes care of her and I have to start university soon and I didn't want to be unjustful to poor things as rabbits can put a lot of kits at once and then my family would most likely throw them out. So I searched for the best vet I could find and then took Claudia and went to them. I don't know how to put it in words but I've never been so afraid before. When the doctor approached her to take her out of her carrier, he didn't open the side door but the top one and the loud pop scared Claudia so much she jumped away and fell into the sink which terrified me because the door was open and there were dogs around so I hurried to hold her and calm her and the doctor scolded me and told me to let them 'handle' her. Now their way of 'handling' her was something so cruel to me. The pulled on her fur and held her down by her ears to do a full check up and I refused to go away and kept watching with regret filling my heart. I was so scared and sorry and regretful for putting her through that. After checking her, he decided she was fine for the surgery then gave her a shot for anthesia .. Seeing her slowly drift asleep melted my heart and that they started shaving her and everything.. Then they took her to the surgery room where I could no longer see.. Few minutes later and I heard her scream.. She started screaming so loud and it seemed so painful that I just couldn't hold back from crying but soon the noises were put down. Dad and I waited for 40 minutes.. And they were the longest 40 minutes in my life. We were sitting in a dark waiting room, patients left and the clinic got so quiet.. Dad kept talking to me to keep my mind from drifting to the worst case scenario but I couldn't understand a thing he said.. 40 minutes later and the doctor came out with a frown and just said he was sorry. My. God. I wanted to jump at that man so bad but then he laughed and said I worry too much and that the surgery has been a success. Then I started tearing again and asked about what happened. He said that he doesn't have a 'machine' that puts the animals to sleep and rather he gives them shots and that he has to give less better than more because a bit more and the rabbit might die. So when he thought she was asleep and before doing anything, he said he pinched her foot and she started screaming and so he gave her more but she still was awake then more and she was still awake until he decided to just do local numbing then do the procedure. His way of sewing her close is neat so that there are no visible strings and they are self-dissolved but I asked him to wrap her up with a bandage because we couldn't find an E-collar and so he did then handed her over to me... She was asleep like a baby in my arms and I could feel her heart beat and how she was breathing.. The doctor then told me that he and the other doctor have studied rabbits overseas and that his experiments and studies were all about rabbits before becoming more advanced in other animals and such then asked me to bring her back for 3 days for medication shots to make sure the incision doesn't hurt her and that it isn't infected.. I came home and placed her in her cage gently and she started trying to get up but kept falling and seeing that really broke my heart but I was just so happy that she was alive. It's nearly midnight now and she currently can stand but she's still not entirely awake and hasn't eaten or drunk anything yet, her surgery was done by 7 PM and I'm glad I made her eat before going to the vet. Although half of me regretted taking her there and felt like it was selfish for me to decide for her and put her through such pain but I know that I want her to just be healthy and live as long as possible with me and I hope she can forgive me for it. What were your experiences with your rabbits getting fixed?