RIP Beloved Tiny aka "The BunFather"

[PepnFluff]

Im sitting here reading this and cryiing. He sounded like an awesome bun. I am really really sorry for your loss.:cry4:

 

[Just Jack]

I'm so sorry Peg to hear about Tiny. I haven't been around for a long time but whenever I thought about you guys here I would always remember Tiny. He always struck me as the king of all bunnies. He really was The BunFather.

 

[polly]

Peg i have no words i am so sorry.

Tiny a gentle giant with a giantheart ink iris:you were loved by so many but none more so than Peg.

 

[TinysMom]

I don't know if others can see it - I have to keep hitting refresh...but thank you Flashy for the beautiful new avatar...it means a lot.

Peg

 

[Flashy]

Try hitting F5, or logging out and in, or closing the internet altogether and starting again. I'm glad you like it

 

[tundrakatiebean]

for Tiny

 

[TinysMom]

tundrakatiebean wrote:

for Tiny

Thank you - that was beautiful.

Peg

 

[GoinBackToCali]

It truly saddens me that Tiny lost his wee little life, but his spirit will live on..
Such a beautiful lad..

Binky free and hard.. ..

ink iris:

Zin

 

[maherwoman]

Oh Peg...I wish I had words...

The world feels so empty today without him...I can't believe he's gone...

I secretly had hoped that we could get him and Teeny together for a picture one day...I can't believe how quickly this has happened. It feels so wrong and unfair...

Remember that I'm here if you need to talk, ok?

Oh, Tiny...you're so loved and missed, Hunny...binky free, big guy...and tell all our buns we love them and miss them...

:hug: :hearts

 

[LuvaBun]

I'm sorry Peg, it's taken me all day to post a comment here. I wanted to write something about how much Tiny meant to me, and how I've cried all day - and still am crying. But, I can't find any words ..... only tears.

God Bless, Tiny. I am so going to miss you.

Jan

 

[Haley]

Oh Peg, this is just so difficult to deal with. I cant believe your beautiful boy is gone. I wonder if he and Ginger Spice are snuggling together somewhere right now (but dont tell Miss Bea I said that).

Thank you for sharing your beautiful stories and photos. Tiny meant a lot to all of us here. We will all remember him and miss him so much.

We're here for you, Peg. ink iris: Rest in peace, special boy.:bunnyangel:

Haley

 

[Starina]

I am so sorry Peg. We all have lost Tiny, and grieve with you. :hug2:My heart dropped when I saw Tiny's name.

~Star~

"My heart has joined the Thousand, for my friend stopped running today."

 

[TinysMom]

I want to thank you all for your words of love and comfort since Tiny let me know he was ill on Friday night. They have truly meant a lot to me and while right now - words still seem empty because what I want is my boy in my arms...kissing me...I realize I can't have that. It blesses me to know that he touched so many in his very short life.

I can't help thinking about how a week ago we did photos outside and I was thinking, "Tiny looks ragged - this is a horrid molt....I should wait till he looks better"....and now...he's gone. He won't look better. Ever.

When the vet looked at him, she could tell he'd been going through a molt - but she did not see anything which made her suspect (from his coat) how ill he was.

Anyway - thank you for all you've done - for your care and support and PMs and IMs and emails, etc.

I appreciate it.

Peg

 

[PixieStixxxx]

Peg, when I saw this title, my heart dropped.

I am so sorry for your loss - Tiny was such a special boy, and he had an amazing life with you. I truly am sorry and wished you and him had 10 more years of love ahead.

We have lossed too many of our love buns this years =[

RIP Tiny :rainbow:

 

[TreasuredFriend]

Dear Peg, it also has taken a while to stop crying from the computer desk in Wisconsin.... Your post of Miss Bea grieving and all the photos kept the stream of tears running down my cheeks. I was silenced to the *mourning cave* when you posted of Miss Bea taking food over to Tiny shortly after he passed. The picture of Bea not wanting to leave him as he was swaddled in the towel. I cried, then went upstairs to sit with our disabled girl Karla and her husbun Barry (Karla's mobility has worsened in the last 6 months), remembering a previous post of undergunfire's about spending time "WITH" and taking pics of your beloved bun/s.
- You've taught us so much about loving our companions. Tiny has a special place in everyone's heart; he reminded me of our big black Kareena (RIP) who was guided from her pain last October.
Please post more chapters and photos as you can. Tears will fall and tissue will be wadded up on the desk here, and smiles will stretch my facial muscles. I will spend more time hugging each and every bun in our home, those I trim nails for, rescue, foster, et al.

Tiny's happy memories, his life with you and his girl (from these few pages I could grab time to read), AND all your kids' antics and priceless moments will inspire ~

Love and kindness to you and yours as you take time to heal and commemorate.

 

[TinysMom]

Thank you to all who have posted. For those who might have missed my message in the main forum - I am taking a short break. I will post Tiny's First Day in Heaven later this week - possibly today. I'm finishing it up and it is almost done.

For those who wish to contact me - you can reach me at [email protected] and I ask that you put your screen name somewhere in the email so I know who you are.

I feel like my heart is broken right now - I got up in the morning and came into the office to be greeted by kisses as Tiny settled down at my feet. For 12 or more hours today he was never more than 3 or 4 feet from me....and for at least half that time - he was ON my feet or right beside them.

It is hard to sit at my desk or even be in my office right now. It is hard to even come on the internet since this was my homepage.

I first came to this forum because I'd adopted Tiny & Tio & Kyo. This forum taught me how to love Tiny for who he was - not for who I wanted him to be. Funny thing....after I learned to love him for who he was - he became the rabbit I'd always dreamed he'd be....giving me kisses all the time - sometimes he'd kiss my ankles and legs for 5 minutes at a time...

I want to share a story - maybe because it will help y'all picture another side of Tiny...and also explain my feelings.

When Mallory & Madilyn went to live with Zin, Tiny and Miss Bea were placed in their pen - because I wanted him to relearn his litter box habits. Tiny did NOT like that at all....never mind that their pen was bigger than the area he tended to spend 99% of his day in.

He stood up on his hind legs and used his teeth and shook the NIC pen for about 2 hours. He'd stand up and grab a piece and shake it - then lay back down for a couple of minutes and then grab it and shake it again.

Someone told me that Tiny saw me as his mother...and as much as he loved Miss Bea - he did NOT want to be separated from me and that the separation was too much for him. Indeed - I did become worried and I decided to just enjoy him and retrain him without having him be locked up (I think he was locked up a total of 2 days at most).

Now I want to go to the gates of Rainbow Bridge and shake the bars and say "You have to let him out....You have to let me take him back."

We weren't supposed to be separated this soon folks......we really weren't.

Peg

 

[Saffy]

Oh!



I am so, so sorry .. He'll be missed - but his stories will go on and on.

(hug)

 

[TinysMom]

I have finished "Tinys First Day In Heaven". I hope you enjoy it - but I need to share a few things...

• Pow Wow loved being a mother once she was finally able to have babies and not lose them.....she was one of the best mothers I ever had....so I had to find a way to have babies in heaven without trying to imply there was breeding going on
• I couldn't possibly begin to name all of the forum bunnies that have passed...so I picked the ones that had touched me the most this last year. If I missed a bunny (and I know I missed many many of them) - I'm so sorry. I mainly went with ones where I'd read blogs or infirmary threads for a while.

[align=center]The Final Chapter
Tiny's First Day In Heaven

(Please do not post on other forums or email groups, etc. without my prior permission - as it was really written mostly for this forum and those who loved Tiny and are grieving with me).

[align=left]I feel so lousy...I hurt and hurt...I love mama...but I hurt so bad.....I'm sitting here crying about hurting and feeling mama pet my head. She wants me to stay....I know she wants me to stay...but I feel so bad....and there is a light up ahead.

I cry again and give out a sigh and I feel different. Someone's still touching my head....but it doesn't feel like mama. I don't hurt so bad. I lay here and enjoy it. Then something NIPS me..I know it nips me. I open my eyes ....and there is GingerSpice. She's grooming me. She's back.

Or am I gone?

I don't care...its warm and the sun is out and I'm not in my bedroom anymore – I’m laying in the grass. Ginger keeps bumping me on the head and saying, "Come on you big oaf and wake up.....I've got a whole bunch of stuff to show you...".

I look around for a moment and shake my head to clear it. I don’t hurt anymore but I’m not quite sure what is happening. Am I dreaming?

"But mama?"

Ginger nips me again....”Come on Tiny. I'll show you mama...but you have to come with me. You can't just lay around all the time now- come on - we've got important stuff to do now. You’re at the bridge…get moving buddy!".

I get up off the ground and before I know it- I'm in the air. I look at GingerSpice and I can't help myself -I do it again. I run in circles and look at her as she sits on her haunches and laughs.

"I BINKIED!"

"Yes...you did. We do that a lot here.."

"But I haven't binkied in a LONG time... I got so big and it took so much energy to binky. But now it is so easy. I have so much energy!"

"That's ok .... you'll get lots of practice. Now come on with me...".

Together we hop to this "river" or "stream" or whatever...its water. I heard lots of running water when I was with mama last time...she said it was called "babbling brook" cd. It makes me miss her.

GingerSpice says, "Now close your eyes...think of mama and look in the water."

I do. Wait - there's mama...she's in the water...and she's crying. She's screaming and yelling at God and Miss Bea is sitting off to the side watching her.

"Mama" I yell, "I can binky. WATCH ME".

(Ok - so I didn't know that you couldn't binky on water....and I got wet when I landed).

GingerSpice laughs again, "Tiny, whenever you want to see mama - you can come here and see her. This water is made up from all the tears that we bunnies shed for our humans - and the tears they shed for us. They connect us together and we can see them - even if they can't see us.”

I stare at her…”I can see mama? Whenever I want?”

"Yes Tiny - now lets go have FUN....you have friends to see again.."

So first we sneak up on Pow Wow....but wait…she’s busy…..with BABIES? I thought we were in heaven?
“Ask her….” Ginger whispers. “Ask her what she’s doing?”

Pow Wow comes up to see me and gives me a hug and asks about Mama. She explains she hasn’t been to the river yet today so she didn’t know I was coming so soon. She keeps getting interrupted by babies coming up to her and going, “Mama…Mama….”. But she looks so trim and youthful….and um…no signs of….well…you know. How is she nursing these babies?

She smiles at me. “Tiny – I loved being a mama and it was what I do best. Now I’m a mama to all of the babies that come here because of “emergency spays” or who are taken away from their mamas in shelters. They still had life even before they were born…and I take care of them.”

A big Californian comes up behind Pow Wow and gives her a hug. “Mama….some of us boys are gonna go to the clover patch. We’ll be home by supper time..”

She laughs at my raised eyebrows…

“Tiny, I can take care of all the babies – not just lionheads. I’ll have you know I’ve already mothered a dozen flemish giant babies…and they’re all doing great.”

“But feeding them?”

“Tiny – this is rainbow bridge – I don’t have to feed them…just like you won’t have to eat (but you’ll want to). They come here crying for love…for their mama. So I clean them and nurture them with love and before you know it – they’re off binkying to find friends. It’s the best kind of mothering I’ve done so far.”

A crying noise hits my ear….and Pow Wow gave me one last look and hug. “Gotta run Tiny….another new litter was just delivered….and these first few minutes are so crucial so they know they’re loved…”

As I watch Pow Wow turn away and hop the fastest I’ve ever seen a girl go – I get jumped from behind and almost knocked over. A big cream furry face stares at me. “SugarBear?”

Ginger thumps at him and he says, “Sorry sis….I got sidetracked and forgot to meet you two at the entrance. I knew I’d find you here ‘cause we know how much Tiny loves the little ones.”

SugarBear and I chase each other for a bit and once she stops thumping at us, Ginger joins in on the fun.. Ginger and Sugar and I sit around talking about old stories and pictures mom took of us ... like the time we were all eating a salad and had lettuce hanging out of our mouths.

Finally - GingerSpice looks at me with a sparkle in her eyes - and I know what she's thinking. Am I ready? Sure....

We hunt and hunt and talk to a ton of does and no one knows where he is.... till suddenly one doe points behind some bushes and says, "He's flirting with a doe back there..."

Ginger peeks through the bushes and sure enough - he is...

I pull out my biggest .... most bunfatherish voice and say, "Puck....you get back in your cage NOW before mama finds you out here..."

The next thing I know I'm flat on my back with Puck binkying on top of my belly, "You're here Tiny? You're really here? Tell me....how's mama? And the does? How's Miss Bea? Its so GOOD to have you here." I try to answer him but its hard to answer when he’s jumping up and down on my belly.

“STOP IT” I yell at him. “Get off me or I’ll thwump you hard.” He backs off.

Puck thumps at Ginger and says, “Why didn’t you tell me to meet you at the entrance? You never told me Tiny was coming….”

She smiles and actually laughs and says, “Cause I wanted him to surprise you…it was so much fun to see you jump in the air and look behind your shoulder for him. Isn’t it great to have BunFather back with us again?”

I can't believe it - instead of being upset with Puck for being the mischief maker he always was - suddenly - I like him.....and I understand him.

We all jump around and play chase and "who can binky the highest" and stuff like that. I can’t believe it – its almost like a “one size fits all” for binkies because I can binky as good as they can. No longer am I held back by my big old body…my spirit can jump for joy. Puckenny even comes and joins us and Puck’s face lights up as he says, “Look at my daughter…isn’t she beautiful? She sure reminds me of her mama, my Jenny girl”

As I’m sitting there resting – I feel something….or someone… nipping my butt. HOW DARE THEY? I turn around to see Drew laughing at me. “I sneakses up on you Tiny…. I sneakses….I’ze sneaskier than you..”. I groan. Of all the does I’ve ever met….Drewsome was the most …. I can’t even find the words for it. She was the only doe I never wanted to snuggle with. She laughs again and Dusty and Bun Bun come up behind her….they’re all out of breath.

“See boys…I told you I could sneaks up on Tiny….” We all groan.

“Well boyz…I’m off to sneaks some more…” and off she went. I gave a little sigh of relief and then stare as Dusty and Bun Bun follow her.

“What are they doing?” I ask Ginger. She laughs….”Someone has to keep an eye on Drew or else she’s gonna get herself into trouble. That’s why Bun Bun sent for Dusty to come up so soon…he couldn’t keep up with Drew..”.

We all laugh…

Then I get a sad look on my face. Ginger says "Mama?" and I say, "Yeah...and the forum....I'm a moderator you know..".

Ginger and Puck and Sugar and so many of my new friends escort me over to a bench .... and there sits this man with bunnies. He almost looks like Santa or something. Ginger says, "Jump up on the bench and introduce yourself to him...".

So I jump up on the bench...and I say, "I'm Tiny. I'm the..." and before I can finish it - he says, "The BunFather....yes I know."

I look at him - I'm amazed. My mouth drops open...and I'm like, "How can you understand me? I have a voice to talk to you?"

He shakes his head – and looks at me with a big smile and such compassion in his eyes. He rubs me on the top of the head just like I love to be petted...and he says to me, "Welcome to the Rainbow Bridge dear friend. Someday you will see your mama again here...but till then...you can see her in the water and you can come here and talk to me when you're lonely. My name is Buck Jones....and I'm the "big kahuna" bunny."

As I sit there looking at this man and enjoy relaxing in his presence…he crooks his finger and bunnies come and surround the bench – as far as I can see. So many bunnies are here that mom has read about and loved. I hear the crowd as the words, “It’s the BunFather” is passed from bun to bun to bun.
There off to the side is the regal flemish doe I always looked at – Samantha. She shyly bows her head and winks at me. In front of me sits Raphael…his long ears hitting the ground. He shouts, “Hey watch this BunFather” and binkies as high as he can. “Top that,” he says as he lands. He’s healthy and has a big smile on his face. Sprite is here with a smile on her face and a handsome buck sits beside her. Domino pushes Puck aside as he thumps and greets me. Funny…he doesn’t look as old as mama always said he was. Flash is here and I swear he has a British accent as he says “Welcome”. Beside him sits Moon and she tilts her head and says to me, 'If you dare try and 'BunFather' me, mate, I'll Phwap you'.

I look around and there’s Ruby and Marshmallow and Pebble and Cooper and Snuggles and Butterfinger and Qingqing and BK and Herman and Cricket and…

Buck interrupts my musings as he claps his hands and says, “Ok buns…forum time….” Before I know it – we’re all at the water – staring into it as the forum posts come alive for us. We laugh at Yofi’s antics and ooh and aah over Marilyn Bunroe’s babies’ pictures. We check out photos of our favorite bunnies and people as the blogs get updated and we remind each other of stories we’ve heard our people talk about. We send healing thoughts and wishes Chippy’s way.

And then – its hard to explain – but I notice – each bun sort of goes off alone and looks down at their own person. Ginger and Puck and Sugar and I stare at mama and I can’t help but laugh as Drew has two images going - one of our mama and one of her California mama. I gotta figure out how to do that. I watch mama sleep and shed a tear.

“I wish I could talk to mama again. She slept with me in her arms all night and she petted me and petted me when I felt so bad. I want her to know I love her.”

Ginger sheds a tear as she grooms me and says, “Tiny, I’ll teach you how to talk to her in her dreams….but it will have to be later. Let’s let her sleep for now..”

“And Miss Bea? Can I send a message to her too?”

Ginger nods her head and says “later Tiny. Let mama help her first….”

So I look around at Ginger and Puck and Sugar and all of my other friends.... and I realize - I didn't leave mama forever...I just have a "new home" for now. She’ll be here someday.

Till then…I’ll go do some binkies….and maybe even learn how to sneakz…..





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[Flashy]

:tears2:That's so beautiful.

 

[JadeIcing]

Oh man that made me cry. I miss my girl.