ok, i just want to shout at anything so i guess here is the best place. some of you may know some of this. some may not.
i dont really give a stuff if any one comments or not. i jyust want to share so its off my cheast. finally
I feel asif i need to share this before i get to bad with dealing with it.
ok, red john and psych16 have an idea due to cnvosations with them, but i am feeling very very down. at the bottom of a pit.
every thing is going wrong and things are piling on. geee im not a magnat!
ill start at the start.
my dad us having a mental relationship with this woman linda at his work. (bus driver) she started 9yrs ago. my dad since then is having a physcolical relaptionship with her. he sends her texts (he wrote a text for linda, but sent it to my mum instead) it read "hi, hows it going, ill have a wee chat to you at around 2. your lucky to get off tuesday beacuse of the match, see you later babe"
he never sends texts like that to his wife. she is never called babe let alone texted it.
he has walked 2 times but my mum kicked him out after he had been doing her shifts when she was still in bed. some times pretending to be working when he was off doing her work and she gets all the money..
the two times her walked we did not have heating over winter and ran out of gas for cooking one or two times. now my mum is struggling again. she is saying she is not turning me against my dad, but weather she knows it or not she is trying. messing with my mind which noramly is very hard to do,
then i have this girl following me and fiona(my real friend) about getting me into trouble and me nearly killing her when inaprotiatly touched my brest and slaped me, thank god no teacher was in that corador. i got mad, and now she is fighting with me saying i used self defence
one time she wandered off durning lunch when i was in the line for dinner. i waved at her and she saw me we made eye contact then i went on shoving through the line like normal. then me and fiona could not see her. we srugged it off. in next class laura and alice stopped me in art when i was getting more pastles and said what did you do to lauen?(ps, this was way before i used self defence).
lauen went crying to alice and laura that we bullied her!!!
of all the cheek. now its the summer hoildays... thankfully.
this happend in 2nd yr, in 1st year, lauen told me in maths do you need nayhelp??? of couse you do your stupid, and i shoved off her chair, which i dont normal resort to violence but i was already annoyed at the maths.
then i might have a incurable disabiltity called dyscaclculia. which is to do with maths, time, space measure ment, music and other things, which explains my so called stupid ness in math lessons. im having a meeting in school on... monday about it and were talking about lauren. but the school will hardley do a thing about lauren because its happened to other people. and this disabitlity is sometimes srugged off by schools and sweeped under the carpet.
and if not all. my mum mentaly and osmetimes physically abuses me, so think how that has and still is afecting me...
some tomes i want to run away. i have even planned it. some times i thought of sucide.... but i rule it out and tell my self i ahve friends. i have my 2 pets. and i have you guys/gals.
on top of it my mum is seroiusly talking about sucide. and its another thing ontop of me. and because she has been abusing me nad my brothers... some times i dont give a dam. when she has said it, i tell her no. dont. but inside i really dont care. but then becuas eof that i feel guielty.
i wnat to beable to hug my mother with out feeling dead i might get hit or worse. but now i dont wnat hugs any more from her. and now im feeling really sad.
im a bit happy today because the mentalist has two behind the sense shows and also the last two shows of season one on tonight.
hey this thread has some mentalist related stuff so i guess its in the riht place.
im sorry for posting this, but i want to tell someone and get a weight off my chest.
tahnks,
elena
i dont really give a stuff if any one comments or not. i jyust want to share so its off my cheast. finally
I feel asif i need to share this before i get to bad with dealing with it.
ok, red john and psych16 have an idea due to cnvosations with them, but i am feeling very very down. at the bottom of a pit.
every thing is going wrong and things are piling on. geee im not a magnat!
ill start at the start.
my dad us having a mental relationship with this woman linda at his work. (bus driver) she started 9yrs ago. my dad since then is having a physcolical relaptionship with her. he sends her texts (he wrote a text for linda, but sent it to my mum instead) it read "hi, hows it going, ill have a wee chat to you at around 2. your lucky to get off tuesday beacuse of the match, see you later babe"
he never sends texts like that to his wife. she is never called babe let alone texted it.
he has walked 2 times but my mum kicked him out after he had been doing her shifts when she was still in bed. some times pretending to be working when he was off doing her work and she gets all the money..
the two times her walked we did not have heating over winter and ran out of gas for cooking one or two times. now my mum is struggling again. she is saying she is not turning me against my dad, but weather she knows it or not she is trying. messing with my mind which noramly is very hard to do,
then i have this girl following me and fiona(my real friend) about getting me into trouble and me nearly killing her when inaprotiatly touched my brest and slaped me, thank god no teacher was in that corador. i got mad, and now she is fighting with me saying i used self defence
one time she wandered off durning lunch when i was in the line for dinner. i waved at her and she saw me we made eye contact then i went on shoving through the line like normal. then me and fiona could not see her. we srugged it off. in next class laura and alice stopped me in art when i was getting more pastles and said what did you do to lauen?(ps, this was way before i used self defence).
lauen went crying to alice and laura that we bullied her!!!
this happend in 2nd yr, in 1st year, lauen told me in maths do you need nayhelp??? of couse you do your stupid, and i shoved off her chair, which i dont normal resort to violence but i was already annoyed at the maths.
then i might have a incurable disabiltity called dyscaclculia. which is to do with maths, time, space measure ment, music and other things, which explains my so called stupid ness in math lessons. im having a meeting in school on... monday about it and were talking about lauren. but the school will hardley do a thing about lauren because its happened to other people. and this disabitlity is sometimes srugged off by schools and sweeped under the carpet.
and if not all. my mum mentaly and osmetimes physically abuses me, so think how that has and still is afecting me...
on top of it my mum is seroiusly talking about sucide. and its another thing ontop of me. and because she has been abusing me nad my brothers... some times i dont give a dam. when she has said it, i tell her no. dont. but inside i really dont care. but then becuas eof that i feel guielty.
i wnat to beable to hug my mother with out feeling dead i might get hit or worse. but now i dont wnat hugs any more from her. and now im feeling really sad.
im a bit happy today because the mentalist has two behind the sense shows and also the last two shows of season one on tonight.
hey this thread has some mentalist related stuff so i guess its in the riht place.
im sorry for posting this, but i want to tell someone and get a weight off my chest.
tahnks,
elena
