pinksalamander
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I think by writing this i am probably making things worse for myself. Its just i need to write down all my thoughts so i can remember them and hopefully make something better of them in the future.
We just lost William.
I have no idea why.
It all started yesterday, he seemed really relaxed as he sat in the kitchen. I thought he must have been really happy because he was so chilled out. My Mum said to me 'are you sure he's alright?' I said, 'thats what i was thinking'. I brushed it aside. I thought he must have just been so happy he could relax so much.
This morning i got him out of his hutch, to try and see if he was getting along with Lottie anymore, doing a small bonding session. He seemed quiet again. He hopped to a corner and sat down, his eyes quite closed. I noticed a little later he was shaking a bit. He didn't seem majorly bad, i told my Mum on the phone he had been a little off but i had to go and babysit my cousins so she said she would bring him in for some cuddle time.
It seems so weird now that i was so unaware, playing card games with my cousins and watching TV. My Mum rang my Aunties house and said he had taken a turn for the worst. He'd gone really cold and was shivering/shaking badly. She had tried to ring around to find a vet but none were open, (this was about 9.30).
I asked if she would come pick me up, take me and my two cousins back to our house. I was just so worried that if something happened to him i wouldn't be there.
When we got home he was very cold. We put a hot water bottle under him and blankets over him. He was shaking badly and found it difficult to hold up his head. I thought maybe making him eat something would give him some energy. We couldn't get him to eat anything so my Mum dug around in the drawer. She also found a packet of recovery food we had been given after his neuter that he hadn't needed. I thought it couldn't hurt so we fed him some.
After about 20 minutes he seemed a little more awake. He started to retaliate when we tried to syringe feed him. I thought that at least he was puting up a fight so he was a little stronger.
It carried on for ages. I kept stroking him, he seemed so exhausted, his front legs were splayed because he couldn't keep them in the middle of the cushion. Everynow and again he tried to hop out. At one point he tried to hop out and onto the floor. We thought maybe he was gaining strength so i picked him up and placed him on the top of the blankets. Immediatley he fell over, he started having seizures. At that point i was pretty sure he wasn't going to survive more than an hour, let alone until tomorrow morning when i could take him to the vets.
After his seizures he laid on his side, breathing slowly but twitching every now and again. I just kept stroking him. I knew he was going to die sometime soon.
After about half an hour he stopped breathing.
I just don't know what to do. I've had animals die before but its so difficult everytime. I don't think i can stand getting anymore animals because i just don't know if i can handle having more deaths. When my cat dies i know the pain will be even worse.
I am also worried that it was something to do with Lottie. It seems that i introduced them in the morning, and started noticing signs of him being ill that evening. I do resent her, even though i know it wasn't her intentional fault, it may not have been anything to do with her but i can't help thinking it and i hate myself for it.
I did even feel like crying that much until my Mum did. She picked him up and she said she just couldn't do it anymore. She said she never wants me to get another animal because they all die soemtime and she can't stand going through it anymore.
Everyone has gone now. I'm just going to go to bed and home i can sleep. I'm sure in a while i will be over it but i just don't know what to do. I feel so horrible that i have this other rabbit, who i'm not even that friendly with. Of course i still like her, but i don't love her yet and all i want is him back. I keep wondering if i'd never got her in the first place would this have never happened?! I now know she won't be as happy, and she will too have to be a solitary bunny like Will was, and that makes me even sadder.
So i just wanted to say, don't take your animals for granted. And that maybe we should all think about this when we buy other animals. Animals are fantastic to keep, but at some point they will die. I don't think, now i've gone through this (which for some reason, seemed exceptionally hard) i can bear getting another animal because i know at some point they will die and the less animals i have the less pain i have to go through.
Just remember that you never know what is going to happen, and you may think that it will never turn out bad, or that you can go to the vet and everything will be fine.
Sorry for this post being so long and boring. I just needed to write down what was going through my mind.
The last picture i took of him:
We just lost William.
I have no idea why.
It all started yesterday, he seemed really relaxed as he sat in the kitchen. I thought he must have been really happy because he was so chilled out. My Mum said to me 'are you sure he's alright?' I said, 'thats what i was thinking'. I brushed it aside. I thought he must have just been so happy he could relax so much.
This morning i got him out of his hutch, to try and see if he was getting along with Lottie anymore, doing a small bonding session. He seemed quiet again. He hopped to a corner and sat down, his eyes quite closed. I noticed a little later he was shaking a bit. He didn't seem majorly bad, i told my Mum on the phone he had been a little off but i had to go and babysit my cousins so she said she would bring him in for some cuddle time.
It seems so weird now that i was so unaware, playing card games with my cousins and watching TV. My Mum rang my Aunties house and said he had taken a turn for the worst. He'd gone really cold and was shivering/shaking badly. She had tried to ring around to find a vet but none were open, (this was about 9.30).
I asked if she would come pick me up, take me and my two cousins back to our house. I was just so worried that if something happened to him i wouldn't be there.
When we got home he was very cold. We put a hot water bottle under him and blankets over him. He was shaking badly and found it difficult to hold up his head. I thought maybe making him eat something would give him some energy. We couldn't get him to eat anything so my Mum dug around in the drawer. She also found a packet of recovery food we had been given after his neuter that he hadn't needed. I thought it couldn't hurt so we fed him some.
After about 20 minutes he seemed a little more awake. He started to retaliate when we tried to syringe feed him. I thought that at least he was puting up a fight so he was a little stronger.
It carried on for ages. I kept stroking him, he seemed so exhausted, his front legs were splayed because he couldn't keep them in the middle of the cushion. Everynow and again he tried to hop out. At one point he tried to hop out and onto the floor. We thought maybe he was gaining strength so i picked him up and placed him on the top of the blankets. Immediatley he fell over, he started having seizures. At that point i was pretty sure he wasn't going to survive more than an hour, let alone until tomorrow morning when i could take him to the vets.
After his seizures he laid on his side, breathing slowly but twitching every now and again. I just kept stroking him. I knew he was going to die sometime soon.
After about half an hour he stopped breathing.
I just don't know what to do. I've had animals die before but its so difficult everytime. I don't think i can stand getting anymore animals because i just don't know if i can handle having more deaths. When my cat dies i know the pain will be even worse.
I am also worried that it was something to do with Lottie. It seems that i introduced them in the morning, and started noticing signs of him being ill that evening. I do resent her, even though i know it wasn't her intentional fault, it may not have been anything to do with her but i can't help thinking it and i hate myself for it.
I did even feel like crying that much until my Mum did. She picked him up and she said she just couldn't do it anymore. She said she never wants me to get another animal because they all die soemtime and she can't stand going through it anymore.
Everyone has gone now. I'm just going to go to bed and home i can sleep. I'm sure in a while i will be over it but i just don't know what to do. I feel so horrible that i have this other rabbit, who i'm not even that friendly with. Of course i still like her, but i don't love her yet and all i want is him back. I keep wondering if i'd never got her in the first place would this have never happened?! I now know she won't be as happy, and she will too have to be a solitary bunny like Will was, and that makes me even sadder.
So i just wanted to say, don't take your animals for granted. And that maybe we should all think about this when we buy other animals. Animals are fantastic to keep, but at some point they will die. I don't think, now i've gone through this (which for some reason, seemed exceptionally hard) i can bear getting another animal because i know at some point they will die and the less animals i have the less pain i have to go through.
Just remember that you never know what is going to happen, and you may think that it will never turn out bad, or that you can go to the vet and everything will be fine.
Sorry for this post being so long and boring. I just needed to write down what was going through my mind.
The last picture i took of him:
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