rabbitgirl
Well-Known Member
Well folks,
Sorry for leaving so abruptly last night. After too many nights of toolittle sleep and too much worrying, I couldn't seem to summon up aninterest in anything. Last night I felt just plain dead, like it alljust hit me at once. I thought I'd take a break from the board and seehow things went. I thought I'd be back, but wasn't sure I had the heartto post if things went wrong. Should have explained, I know, but Icouldn't seem to face talking about it anymore, and the worry was hardto put into words.
Carolyn, I'm sure you remember white nights worrying about Fauna--whatto do, what might happen, and always imagining the worst. I love my Izso much, and I once lost a beloved doe to uterine cancer. That spectrewas looming large the past few days with Izzy's symptoms. I wascontemplating spaying, but they can never be sure it's cancer beforethey operate...I might put her through needless pain...what's best forher, after all? And she's older, and our vets aren't that great....onand on.
But plans have changed. I've finally gotten some sleep, and thismorning Izzy finally appears to be out of the woods. She looks not onlyhealthy but radiantly so. In mylast post about her, I wasleaning toward a kidney stone or harmless porphyria, but there were afew more nights of waiting and watching before I could be sure. Andthose took a toll. It was so hard to go out in the morning and not besure what I'd find. If Iz had had cancer, and it was at that stage, Iknew she'd likely start deteriorating quickly as poor Min did, in amatter of days. I knoew what to watch for, and I dreaded seeing thesigns again. It seemed to hit me worse at night, the worrying. Duringthe day I was slightly more optimistic.
So things lookmuch betterthis morning. Afterfearing the worst, I'm finally coming to terms with the fact thatshe'll be around for awhile yet, God willing. Thanks for all your loveand support, and if I disappear abruptly again....just tell me to getsome sleep....
Rose
Sorry for leaving so abruptly last night. After too many nights of toolittle sleep and too much worrying, I couldn't seem to summon up aninterest in anything. Last night I felt just plain dead, like it alljust hit me at once. I thought I'd take a break from the board and seehow things went. I thought I'd be back, but wasn't sure I had the heartto post if things went wrong. Should have explained, I know, but Icouldn't seem to face talking about it anymore, and the worry was hardto put into words.
Carolyn, I'm sure you remember white nights worrying about Fauna--whatto do, what might happen, and always imagining the worst. I love my Izso much, and I once lost a beloved doe to uterine cancer. That spectrewas looming large the past few days with Izzy's symptoms. I wascontemplating spaying, but they can never be sure it's cancer beforethey operate...I might put her through needless pain...what's best forher, after all? And she's older, and our vets aren't that great....onand on.
But plans have changed. I've finally gotten some sleep, and thismorning Izzy finally appears to be out of the woods. She looks not onlyhealthy but radiantly so. In mylast post about her, I wasleaning toward a kidney stone or harmless porphyria, but there were afew more nights of waiting and watching before I could be sure. Andthose took a toll. It was so hard to go out in the morning and not besure what I'd find. If Iz had had cancer, and it was at that stage, Iknew she'd likely start deteriorating quickly as poor Min did, in amatter of days. I knoew what to watch for, and I dreaded seeing thesigns again. It seemed to hit me worse at night, the worrying. Duringthe day I was slightly more optimistic.
So things lookmuch betterthis morning. Afterfearing the worst, I'm finally coming to terms with the fact thatshe'll be around for awhile yet, God willing. Thanks for all your loveand support, and if I disappear abruptly again....just tell me to getsome sleep....
Rose
