swanlake
Well-Known Member
**** it you guys, i need to get out of my house, but my parents hid the car keys. I tried talking to my sister up at MSU, but she just goes back and tells my parents everything.
I have depression, and its getting better. but i feel fine and I don't like my doctor and I don't think that what is going on is helping anymore. I am also getting ECT treatment, but i don't want to go to them anymore, I can't help but think they are messing with my brain.
Last night i didn't sleep all night, because i knew if i went to sleepi wouldn't want to wake up to go to the doctors today. I still didn't want to though. My parents made me go and dragged me out of my room to the car. My dad even hit me, which has never happened before.
I am just scared here, i need to go away. My parents are all freaking out because i said i wanted to die. they don't get that I dont want to do this **** anymore, i don't want to get better, and i am tired of doing all of this only because THEY want it. I want to do something for me for a change.
You guys are the only people i can talk to with confidence. sorry about all of this, i just really need to talk to people who won't go back and tell my parents everything i say.
I just don't care anymore. I don't want to finish high school, i don't want to do anything anymore. if i could just sleep the rest of my life away i would
I have depression, and its getting better. but i feel fine and I don't like my doctor and I don't think that what is going on is helping anymore. I am also getting ECT treatment, but i don't want to go to them anymore, I can't help but think they are messing with my brain.
Last night i didn't sleep all night, because i knew if i went to sleepi wouldn't want to wake up to go to the doctors today. I still didn't want to though. My parents made me go and dragged me out of my room to the car. My dad even hit me, which has never happened before.
I am just scared here, i need to go away. My parents are all freaking out because i said i wanted to die. they don't get that I dont want to do this **** anymore, i don't want to get better, and i am tired of doing all of this only because THEY want it. I want to do something for me for a change.
You guys are the only people i can talk to with confidence. sorry about all of this, i just really need to talk to people who won't go back and tell my parents everything i say.
I just don't care anymore. I don't want to finish high school, i don't want to do anything anymore. if i could just sleep the rest of my life away i would