babydoshia
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I'm so lost right now. I just got a acall about an hour ago. My best friend Star Od'ed two daysago and died yesterday. I dont know what to do. Icant think right and I cant see becasue of the tears. I can'tstop crying nad I cant think straigt. She was my bestfriend. She was more than my friend, she was mysister. ADn onw she is gone. I dont know what todo. I've never felt this way before. I feel likeI'm dead. MY whole life is screwed up now. She wasmy everyhitng, everything in my life involed her. I have noidea what the hell to do. I havn't stop crying since her momcalled and told me. She was only 29 and now she isgone. I have so many of her things and things fromher. Everything around me reminds me of her I knowthis is the normal grieveing thing but I dont think I can ever go backto normal. I just miss her so much. We did everythingtogether. I was even the maid of honor in here wedding.
We've been friends for 5 years. I met her when I moved togColoraod. WE did eveything together. I stayed withher every weekend for like 2 year.s When we moved to Iowalast year I still called her about evey week. I just talkedto her last week and she was fine. And now she is goneforever. She had problems in the past and previous attempsbut she was better. She was happy and vowed to me never to think ofthings like that. She said she realized how stupid she wasthose years ago and how she is thinkning right, now. I justdont know what happened. I love her so much adn now she isgone. I've never felt this sad before. I dont think I'll evwer go backto normal Lots of poeple close to me have dies before. Butever anyone as close to me as her. SHe was the one person Iloved. The one person in the world I could comfortabley sharemy deep feelings and thoughts with. And now I have no one.she was the one person in the world I ever loved. I was neverembarased in front of her, and she was never embarrased of me, eventhough we are nothin alike. Bisides the age difference, shewas way more outgoing than me, and talked to everyone. Shedressed nothin like me and was the complete opposite of me but she stilloved me, ahe excepts ed me for who I am, unlike most people.
She was only 29. And now she is gone fforever. I cant believe it. I'm seriously lost.
I dont think I'll be on much for a whil. I'll try and chekcin every once in awhile but I dont think I;'ll be doing much ofanything for a while except work.
I know I'm repeating myself, but I am so lost right now.
Sorry about my spelling and stuff. I dont feel like going throught itall. If it's really bad someone can edit it. I justcant think straight right now.
Heres a pitre of her witrh her son Cody. He's 9 adn lives in Alaska with her ex husband. (She's from Alaska)
We've been friends for 5 years. I met her when I moved togColoraod. WE did eveything together. I stayed withher every weekend for like 2 year.s When we moved to Iowalast year I still called her about evey week. I just talkedto her last week and she was fine. And now she is goneforever. She had problems in the past and previous attempsbut she was better. She was happy and vowed to me never to think ofthings like that. She said she realized how stupid she wasthose years ago and how she is thinkning right, now. I justdont know what happened. I love her so much adn now she isgone. I've never felt this sad before. I dont think I'll evwer go backto normal Lots of poeple close to me have dies before. Butever anyone as close to me as her. SHe was the one person Iloved. The one person in the world I could comfortabley sharemy deep feelings and thoughts with. And now I have no one.she was the one person in the world I ever loved. I was neverembarased in front of her, and she was never embarrased of me, eventhough we are nothin alike. Bisides the age difference, shewas way more outgoing than me, and talked to everyone. Shedressed nothin like me and was the complete opposite of me but she stilloved me, ahe excepts ed me for who I am, unlike most people.
She was only 29. And now she is gone fforever. I cant believe it. I'm seriously lost.
I dont think I'll be on much for a whil. I'll try and chekcin every once in awhile but I dont think I;'ll be doing much ofanything for a while except work.
I know I'm repeating myself, but I am so lost right now.
Sorry about my spelling and stuff. I dont feel like going throught itall. If it's really bad someone can edit it. I justcant think straight right now.
Heres a pitre of her witrh her son Cody. He's 9 adn lives in Alaska with her ex husband. (She's from Alaska)