Aww Lissa I am so sorry for your loss :tears2:
I wish there was a way to make the pain go away, but there isnt. Knowthat you are not alone in your struggle. I completelyunderstand what you are going through. I lost my baby Oreo back inSeptember of 2004 and I'm still having trouble without her being here& dealing with her death. She died in my arms while having aseizure.. I was completely helpless there was nothing I could do tosave her & for a while I was blaming myself that I didn't doenough. It took time for me to realize there was really nothing i couldhave done to stop it. :sad:
Her cage was in my bedroom I could lay in bed & look over tosee her.. she was my best friend, my baby, my stay up all nite buddy..everytime i needed someone to talk to she always listened no matterwhat.. she made me feel better.. I miss that terribly. I have thelittle box with her ashes on her princess table where i kept her hay& treats in my bedroom with an angel on top of it. There'stimes when I still cry myself to sleep because i miss her so much.Sometimes i just sit there infront of it & talk to her, its notthe same as having her physically there, but i know in my heart herspirit is sitting there listening to me, protecting me. No other animalcan replace that bond between us. My parents wont let me get anotherpet (other then goldfish but i never really cared for goldfish aspets), so its hard to not have that kind of animal bond in my life.There is a special place in your heart that only animals can fill.
I know it's hard, extremely hard to deal with a loss like that. Takecomfort in knowing that Lenci know's how much you love her &even tho you dont see her physically there, she's always by your side..every small draft you may feel when there's no windows open, orsometimes when you get that feeling you're being watched, or somethingtickles your foot but no ones there, or the little noises that soundfamiliar but are disregarded as 'just your imagination' are her way ofletting you know shes there & she'll never leave you. Once youform a bond of love with someone whether it be a person or animal, thatbond lasts for eternity. Sometimes late at night i swear i hear thenoise that Oreo's water bottle use to make when she took a drink, itmakes me smile i know she's there with me.
Comfort yourself in all the good times you've shared, all the crazybunny things Lenci did & all the good times you have to lookforward to having with your new bunny. It will take time, but therewill be a day when you will be able to talk about your happy memories& they will bring smiles back to your face. Remember she isntsuffering anymore and she would want you to be happy, not sad.
Don't think of it as a good bye, there will come a time when you'll bereunited with Lenci and have her in your arms again:rainbow::bunnyangel:
Our thoughts & prayers are with you!
ray::rose::hug:
~pam