lagadvocate
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Hi all, as some of you may know, I lost my boy Charlie a couple of weeks ago. He was my only bun since I lost Buddy then Carmel barely a year apart, and then Charlie barely a month after Carmel.
Charlie's death affected me in a way that I didn't think possible for me. It broke my heart and my spirit to say the least. I cried every day for my boy, racking my brain for answers and barely able to get out of bed. For the first time in 6 years I didn't have a bun waiting eagerly to be fed in the morning, or to have his ears scratched in the evening. I looked around at the many bunny decorations that I've accumulated and that made me sob. Charlie's beloved APD hay arrived on the Friday after he passed. That one nearly did me in.
For a bit I was scrambling to get another bun. Desperate to fill the gaping hole in my heart. But when I was able to really think about it, I knew deep down that I was no where near ready. The bun I was so frantically searching for was my Charlie, and only my Charlie.
So I let things settle for a minute, tried to clear my head a bit. What do you know...quite by happenstance and crazy coincidence, a tiny little dog came into my life. Needing a home badly, and someone to love him.
I haven't had a dog in...I don't know how many years. I was hesitant to say the least. But this little guy is still just a baby and has already been shuffled through houses and had found no home.
So now I have a goofy little chihuahua named Bruce. I am totally in unknown territory. I've been reading and researching as much as I can about puppies and Chihuahuas, trying to give him the very best care and love that I can.
But I've been in bun mode so long that I am definitely having several "duh" moments. I still cry for my boy, but Bruce doesn't seem to let that go on for long. He needs me now.
So my heart will continue to heal, and this little dog will (hopefully) thrive in his forever home. I will have buns again someday (in the not so distant future I hope). I believe firmly that rabbits arespecial and unique in a way that no other animal is. And there is nothing that can compare to the love a bun can give. But for a while, I will stick to volunteering to help buns in rescue and doing whatever I can to help any bun in need.
I'll still be hanging around here though...gotta have my RO/bun fix!
And hopefully I can still chime in from time to time.
I just wanted to share because I really love this forum and all of the wonderful devoted bunny slaves that are a part of it. Thanks for reading guys
-Beth
Charlie's death affected me in a way that I didn't think possible for me. It broke my heart and my spirit to say the least. I cried every day for my boy, racking my brain for answers and barely able to get out of bed. For the first time in 6 years I didn't have a bun waiting eagerly to be fed in the morning, or to have his ears scratched in the evening. I looked around at the many bunny decorations that I've accumulated and that made me sob. Charlie's beloved APD hay arrived on the Friday after he passed. That one nearly did me in.
For a bit I was scrambling to get another bun. Desperate to fill the gaping hole in my heart. But when I was able to really think about it, I knew deep down that I was no where near ready. The bun I was so frantically searching for was my Charlie, and only my Charlie.
So I let things settle for a minute, tried to clear my head a bit. What do you know...quite by happenstance and crazy coincidence, a tiny little dog came into my life. Needing a home badly, and someone to love him.
I haven't had a dog in...I don't know how many years. I was hesitant to say the least. But this little guy is still just a baby and has already been shuffled through houses and had found no home.
So now I have a goofy little chihuahua named Bruce. I am totally in unknown territory. I've been reading and researching as much as I can about puppies and Chihuahuas, trying to give him the very best care and love that I can.
But I've been in bun mode so long that I am definitely having several "duh" moments. I still cry for my boy, but Bruce doesn't seem to let that go on for long. He needs me now.
So my heart will continue to heal, and this little dog will (hopefully) thrive in his forever home. I will have buns again someday (in the not so distant future I hope). I believe firmly that rabbits arespecial and unique in a way that no other animal is. And there is nothing that can compare to the love a bun can give. But for a while, I will stick to volunteering to help buns in rescue and doing whatever I can to help any bun in need.
I'll still be hanging around here though...gotta have my RO/bun fix!
And hopefully I can still chime in from time to time.I just wanted to share because I really love this forum and all of the wonderful devoted bunny slaves that are a part of it. Thanks for reading guys
-Beth
