Rest well, Zaide Katt.

Thank you for saying that, Leaf.

I do know that Juju needs a friend again. I feel bad all together. I feel bad for Juju losing his sidekick and I feel bad thinking about "replacing" Zaide so soon.

When we went to adopt another kitty, Juju's foster mom brought his best friend from when he lived with her. "Blaze" is a 2 or 3 year old black kitty who is a Poly, just like Juju. We had him in the petting room and we just didn't connect with him. We adopted Zaide instead, in the back of my mind I always felt bad for not bringing Blade home because him and Juju used to be best buds.

Blade is still avaliable to us and my heart right now says that is what Juju will want. He will want a familiar friend. Do you think Juju will remember him? Is it possible for him to remember their friendship?

I have not a clue what Ryan would say to adopting another one so soon. I know he is hurting really bad and he may not feel the same way as I do right now.

Our home just feels really awful at this time. I am sitting on the couch with Sammy (our dog) on my left side and Juju curled up on my right side. At least, for now, they do play together (they run laps around the house). For Sammy, it is easy to take him to the puppy park to play with other dogs. For Juju, it's not that easy.

I am going to have a heart-to-heart talk with Ryan tonight, and see how we feel in a week. As for right now, it is obviously very fresh.

It is so shocking when an animal passes so suddenly like this- I am so sorry it happened to you and your family. I know it feels as if you are replacing Zaide by adopting soon, but please don't feel that way. You wouldn't be replacing him but the space he left behind, and that is not a bad thing at all.

You mentioned that you have to deal with stress and anxiety issues- I am the same way, and have found it helps to take vitamin B tablets. It works and costs very little. It takes a week or so them to begin to work, but many people see a difference rather quickly.

Cats have better memories than many give them credit for, and if he liked Blade before chances are he will still like him!

Oh, Amy, I am so sorry

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You mentioned that you have to deal with stress and anxiety issues- I am the same way, and have found it helps to take vitamin B tablets. It works and costs very little. It takes a week or so them to begin to work, but many people see a difference rather quickly.

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Thank you, so much. I will see if I can get out to get some of these today. I'll try anything at this point.


Juju has been waking me up during the night for cuddles. It's Saturday morning and I woke up at 6:45 a.m. because he wanted a cuddle. He has stopped searching the house, now he is just obsessed with me again.

Im so sorry Amy The loss of a baby seem's harder to comprehend. When i lost my kitty Cassy in tragic circumstances my other cat would walk around crying for her, it was heartbreaking to see her pining for her sister and best friend. I had no way of..

explaining to her that Cassy wasn't coming home. I eventually brought Casey into her life and her pain lessened. Thinking of you, Ryan and Juju. Sleep well beautiful Zaide ink iris:

Amy,

You will know when its right to get another kitty...and don't be surprised that even though you love that kitty - you'll still have times when you miss Zaide. But I'm sure you know that.

I've been thinking of you so much over the last few days - it is such a roller coaster ride of emotions when you lose an animal...

Whatever you decide...we're here for you...and Ryan and Juju.

I havn't been on much the last few days.. Ali called me to tell me your news.

I should have written sooner.. but I have just been so busy tryin to organize this livestock show on our end..I am a bad friend, I apologize sincerely.

Last night, well yesterday. Jarred had been dead 5 months, and I found myself crying at 2 am, and for some reason you and Zaide entered into my brain, and I sobbed for another 40 minutes thinking about his lil gentle soul and you missing him. I felt so horrible for you, having to find him like that..

And now I am crying again.

Right before he died.. Zaide that is, I had looked at some pics of your fellas, and they had inspired me to look into gettin a lil kitten of my own, I just hadn't gotten around to it..

I will do so now., life's to short not to be loved by a furry thing that meows..

Love ya'll...know that I said a few prayers for you guys..

Z

I'm so sorry :sad:

Thanks, again, you guys. All of your words really mean a lot to me.


Once I finish my rabbit tattoo (chest piece)...I am going to get a shoulder piece that matches the traditional/vintage style of my chest piece....of Zaide...



I have always loved this picture of him because it shows what a little tiger he was. Zaide was my Tiger and Juju is my Panther.


It still hurts with him gone, obviously. I am starting to accept the fact that he is really gone. Sometimes, like when I get out of the shower, I can feel him sitting next to Juju right outside the shower. There are times when I turn my head and I feel like he is there.

I swear I heard him meow last night. He had this dainty little meow, not at all like Juju's. I had fed Juju and was walking out of the kitchen when I heard it.

Last night Juju slept like a baby in my arms in the chair in the living room, while we watched television. I got up and layed stretched out on the floor, and he came down and copied me...right next to me. When we went into bed, he wrapped his little arms around my arm and rested his head on my forearm.

Ryan and I know he needs another friend, soon. He tries to play with me like a kitty, and it is hard because I can't play with him like that.


Does anyone know if you can bring kitties on "dates" like you can bunnies? Does it make a difference? Ryan said we should bring Juju to Patt's house when we go to find him a friend, but I am not sure if he will "pick" a friend out himself?

Patt left me a voicemail saying she had a all black female kitty at their PetSmart adoption event yesterday, up for adoption, who was (somehow) related to Zaide. I didn't go because I was out to a wildlife park and it is just too soon. Ryan also said he really isn't ready. We also want a male, no females.

I'm home from work today. I had to take a "mental health" day. I just couldn't pull myself out of bed to get ready and go. I told Ryan I was sick. I wonder how the heck I am going to make it to even 32 hours this week. Ugh, things are really horrible lately .

I'm sorry that you are hurting so bad, Amy...
Just so you know, when I had that little stray with me earlier this month, my cats yowled at it for a few days, then settled down. Sigmund started playing with the little gal, and really got into having a little puss around.

In future days, I'm sure your good friend Patt would let you borrow a kitten to try out at home... i was thinking that perhaps Juju might be distracted in an environment where there are multiple cats If one happened to be challenging him, maybe he wouldn't gain the full experience.

I pray for calmness and peace of mind for you & Ryan, in your struggles...
Always happy to talk to you

Patt would definitely let us try out a kitty at home. Well, she is adopting it out for free, to us. I am not so sure I want a kitten. It would be too heart breaking because Zaide was "our kitten". He was 7 months old, but was so tiny, he was just starting to fill out and look like an adult cat....just in a smaller size.

I am not sure how our 9lbs crazy dog would be with a little kitten, either. I would prefer a kitty that is fully able to stand up for himself. I wouldn't mind a larger kitten, I guess, just not a little guy.


Ryan and I think more towards the end of the month we will visit Patt at her house or PetSmart, to look at some more kitties.

It is going to be really tough all over again when we have to go pick up Zaide's ashes :?, which should be after Wednesday, I guess....it will be a week, then.

We got Zaide's ashes back today. It is really hard imagining his body being ashes inside the plastic box .

He was cremated on October 6th. His ashes are on our wood stove in the living room, with one of my sleeping kitty statues resting on top of it. It will have to be this way, for now, until we can afford & find a really lovely urn.

For my birthday (December 8th), I told Ryan I wanted this...
http://www.memorial-urns.com/cat_necklace.html

That necklace urn really resembles Zaide, in a way, to me. I can have it laser engraved at work for free.

Hello, my beautiful boy.

Mommy, daddy, Juju, and the rest of the family miss you dearly. Juju has lost a little bit of weight since you have been gone. All he wants to do is be near me. I know he misses you so much.

I had a break down today and cried in the bathroom at work. I just miss you so much and want you back here. It is still so lonely without your dainty little meow greeting us at the door when we come home. I wish you were home so that you could share a bite of my dinners with me. Daddy misses you trying to do every thing that you can to steal dinner off his plate.

Please take care of Mace, the guinea pig. You didn't get to meet him, but you will know just who he is.


I love you my sweet baby tiger :hearts.

I am so sorry for your loss.

I keep missing my Zaide Katt more and more each day. I really try not to think about him, because it brings on instant tears and I remember the horrible moments when he died and I could do nothing about it. I just remember the lifeless look in his eyes.

I love our Tibi (the new kitty), but it definitely isn't the same as having Zaide around. Juju and Tibi aren't totally bonded, like him and Zaide were.


I just emailed Patt, Juju/Tibi/Zaide's old foster mom, to see if she still had Dexter (Zaide's brother). When we went to look at him to possibly adopt, she had said she would probably keep him since he might be sick his whole life (just like their brothers and sisters were). I asked her if she still had him, so I could go over and "hold my baby again". When I held Dexter (Zaide's brother), it was like holding my peanut-brain Persian mixed kitty again. I want so badly to hold him again. I hope she still has Dexter and he didn't pass on too...it will really break my heart.


I just want my little tiger back :cry1:.

Pat still has Dexter (Zaide's brother) :hyper:! She wants me to call her on Monday to plan a day next week for me to go and see him. I sent her an email back asking if he was still a little guy (he is a dwarf, just like Zaide was) and if he still had health issues.

I am so excited. I will definitely bring my camera. I hope I don't sneak him home in my pocket .

Today marks 1 year since my Zaide has been gone. I've been having a rough couple of weeks because of life in general....and today was a day I knew I didn't want to face. I still miss him so much, everything that happened is still very fresh in my mind.

I guess one thing that gives me hope is that through having Peg talk to an animal communicator for me to reach Zaide....he said he was coming back to me. The other night I was crying about Zaide and I got the image in my head of a little fluff ball....it was a black "doll faced" Persian kitten staring at me and he had Zaide's eyes. I then got onto the computer and started researching the true Persian breed & finding reputable breeders. I know in my heart that Zaide sent me the image of the Persian kitten...I knew that my next cat had to be a black Persian.